Life Within a Dream

Our First Anniversary! ^_^

2009-02-12T10:18:47Z

Wow. I can't believe I've been with Marco for ONE YEAR! Yes, that's right, we've crossed the one-year mark. Whoo-hoo!

And we had the awesomest first anniversary ever ^_^ (yes I'm aware that the phrase awesomest first anniversary doesn't make much sense but I'm too high to care)! I mean, wow. Seriously. OK, Angelica, get it together. *breathes* Anyway, like I said, today rocked! Marco's anniversary gifts were so awesome! He gave me a necklace with a GOLD leaf on it and APPLE CIDER and of course, a poem! ^_^ And it was so cute how he wore the exact same outfit that he wore on our first date! I felt a slightly bummed out since I had only one gift for him - I got him the graphic novel version of Stardust, which was the movie we watched on the day we became boyfriend and girlfriend. Maybe I should have given him coffee pie too, considering I said yes to him at Chateau Ortigas's closing party XD. Anyway, we went to Trinoma, and we basically just wandered around and looked at manga and heroclix and clothes and of course, we eventually gravitated towards Powerbooks. Lit nerd that I am, I started browsing for the books our Lit professor told us to read over the summer, and I found this totally awesome version of Voltaire's Candide with comics on its cover! I'd already reserved a copy at Fully Booked though, so Marco was the one who bought it. Some time afterwards, we found Zara and I couldn't resist dragging Marco into the store (not that it ever takes much dragging since Marco's more into clothes than I am). Awesome guy that he is, Marco patiently waited for me to look at everything in the teen's and women's section before we got to the men's section. There, I managed to redeem my anniversary's lack of awesomeness by buying Marco a fedora we both liked! By that time we'd spent about four and a half hours in Trinoma - before that, I'd never realized how much time you can spend doing nothing in a mall without realizing it!

Anyway, we decided it was time to search for Tokyo Cafe in SM North Edsa! I'd been dying to eat there since Marco showed it to me in MOA (we were both already full and in a hurry to get to the cinema at the time). It took us a little while to find a way to cross to SM and then to find The Block, but eventually we did :). The Block had surprisingly less people in it than the rest of SM North Edsa O_o'. I never imagined there could be any part of an SM that wasn't teeming with mall rats (why does that sound so derogatory?). Anyway, it was wonderfully quiet, and while looking for Tokyo Cafe, lit majors that we are, we found FULLY BOOKED! Marco gravitated towards the graphic novels section while I looked for Umberto Eco. Our prof was right - his titles disappear quickly O_O'. There was only one somewhat tattered copy of "The Island of the Day Before," and no "Foucault's Pendulum" to be found. Meanwhile, Marco spotted an issue of the Green Lantern that he'd wanted since forever! We agreed to spend our money on Tokyo Cafe first, and if the books we wanted were still there by the time we got back, we were meant to buy them. Oh, and while we passed the time in Fully Booked, we spotted this book and a new catch phrase was born XD:

Tokyo Cafe was awesome! Marco ordered a dish called "hamburg shrimp" while I got a gyoza burger, and we split a pepperoni pizza. Afterwards, we had a New York cheesecake and vanilla ice cream with espresso sprinkled on it! That was the best! ^_^ Afterwards, Marco tied his hair back and put his new fedora on and wow...it matched what he was wearing perfectly and he looked so hot! Yes he did XD. I was such a proud girlfriend. Too bad I forgot my camera, so I can't share it with you guys ^_^". I'll just have to hope I have a phone with a camera by the time he wears that outfit again.

When we returned to Fully Booked, both "The Island of the Day Before" and "Sinestro Corp War Vol. 2" were still there (wow, I've just realized what a geeky couple we are)! I also managed to reserve the last copy of Moliere's Tartuffe at Fully Booked High Street! ^_^ Afterwards, we took our purchases home (aka my house) and ended the night by marathoning "How I Met Your Mother" while drinking apple cider! ^_^ Today was just the best day ever!

Lost Child?

2009-02-12T10:00:27Z

Whoa, I'm 20. (An Embarrassingly Cheesy Blog Entry)

2008-12-21T13:43:38Z

Okay, first of all, I'm twenty, not twenteen years old. Only old people are in denial about their ages, and only kids try to grow up in a hurry, and I am neither. XD I'm twenty. And I figured since turning twenty seems like a big thing, I might as well write about it.

Some random thoughts that popped into my head:

I'm in a different age bracket now. As in, I check a different box whenever I fill up a form XD.
I'm four years away from the age my mom was when she got married and had her first child. O_o'
Twenty is a big thing, and twenty-one is sort of going to be a big thing too, since then I'll be completely legal in all countries O_o'. It feels kind of weird having two important birthdays in a row.
In Japan, twenty is when people come of age rather than eighteen, and even though I still don't feel like an adult, that makes more sense to me than having a debut at eighteen.
I just realized I had foie gras for three days in a row O_o'. Specifically, at my mom's birthday dinner, as part of the discussion in SA 21 the next day, and at my birthday dinner with my family. Yay for food!
It seems that every time I take pictures of parties or gatherings, almost all the pictures are of food rather than people XD. My family's kind of camera-shy.

Well, I have no problems with being twenty, but I still can't get my head around it. I feel like there should be some huge difference between twenty and nineteen, but then again that's all in my head XD. I could always write about how my life has been for the past two decades, but I'm really too lazy to do that right now. Besides, that seems like something that should be written in a journal rather than a blog. I could write about all the things I'm grateful for and while that would be nice, it seems kind of cliche. Nevertheless, I think it's worth saying that I've had a pretty great life so far and I'm not sugar-coating anything when I say this. And (I know this is one of the most cliche things I could ever say) I definitely owe the awesomeness of the past twenty years to the people in my life - you guys. So, I don't know how this blog entry suddenly became a thank-you letter, but anyway, thanks to all of you who've been in my life and it the way it is for better or worse, especially to those who celebrated my birthday and/or greeted me. You guys made my birthday awesome, and I'm really touched that you guys came and/or greeted me. I love you guys! :D

My Breakthrough with Clothes XD

2008-06-07T07:29:39Z

    You know what, I just realized that something's off with me.
    As my sister puts it, lately I have been "obsesssed with clothes." I kept wishing I had the money to buy all the clothes I wanted, and last Thursday I went all over the tiangge in Greenhills to buy clothes for the new school year XD. Every time I opened my closet, I felt dissatisfied, like everything I had wasn't good enough, and I could never look exactly how I wanted to look. There was always some kind of top or shoe or socks or belt that I didn't have, and I kept looking forward to the next time I could buy clothes again. And every time I went out I could always spot someone who pulled off exactly what I wanted to do what didn't, or someone who looked better than I did, or seemed to look good without nearly as much effort as I put into it. I'd look at InStyle magainze and feel bad because I didn't have the money to buy all the clothes I saw there (besides, I'd have to go to the States to go to the stores they mention there XD).
    Anyway, I realized I wasn't shopping or dressing up for fun. I was shopping and dressing up to look good, and by looking good I would then be good enough. It was like if I looked good enough, then I could prove that I was just as good as any girl out there. In a way, I was channeling my insecurity into clothes, and that's why saving up for clothes and shopping and dressing up was so stressful for me, because I HAD to be good enough to compete with anyone and I never was.
    Well, now I'm giving up thinking those ridiculous thoughts. There's really no point in comparing myself with anyone. I'm whole, perfect and complete just the way I am and just the way I'm not. My closet and everything in it is perfect just the way it is, there's nothing I need to change and there's nothing I need to buy, and I'm perfectly happy with it. ^_^ From now on, whenever I save up to buy clothes and go shopping, it's just for fun. Whenever I choose what I'm going to wear, I can grab whatever's at the top of the pile know whatever I choose, I'm going to look perfect. I could go out in public wearing the most atrocious outfit the world has ever seen and with pimples all over my face and whatever anyone thinks or says about me, I would still be whole, complete and perfect!
    I know this is probably something a lot of you already know, or maybe something you already realized before, or something we've all been told. However, my thing with clothes is something I've been dealing with since, I don't know, puberty, even before I became "obsessed" with it. It's really huge for me to really get this for myself and I just wanted to share it with you all. :)

Tasuketeee...The Most Inane Entry I Have Ever Written

2008-04-27T12:44:34Z

This Boracay trip totally rocks and it's one of the best ever and tomorrow I'm going home and tomorrow I will post pics and talk some more about how great it was and all the cool things that happened, but right now...

I sit in the library of Discovery Shores with my head slumped on the desk because we are all still waiting for my dad and tito to finish their spa treatments and I have run out of things to look at so I'm bored and I am starving and my stomach is calling out for dinner and I wouldn't really be complaining except I miss a certain someone like heeeeelllll...ohwell. Hahaha.

Yay, my mom has just called me to dinner! ^_^

Be Careful What You Wish For XD

2008-04-22T16:38:06Z

Warning: This is a sappy entry.

In many ways, Marco's definitely not the kind of guy I thought I'd end up with - we're opposites on so many levels, and the funny thing is that's just one of the things I love about him ^_^'. At the same time, I realized in some twisted way Marco IS my dream boyfriend XD. I guess the universe paid more attention to my anime crushes than my list of non-negotiables, and here's why:

Before I met him, whenever I thought of what I wanted in a guy, the first that always popped into my mind was he had to be able to make me laugh and be more outgoing than I was, and Marco is definitely that.
He's got to love me exactly the way I am and the way I'm not, quirks and all, and Marco definitely does that. ^_^
My first crush ever was Van de Fanel, and I remember saying if ever I had a boyfriend, he had to look like Van - skinny but strong. Marco is very much that, and even though people think I can easily kick his ass, he's stronger than he looks ^_^.
I remember seeing my sister and Ramon so happy together, and it was cool how Ramon kept bringing us anime and fixing our computer for us. So I thought, "I want a geeky boyfriend too." Well, I got one. XD
I had a really long crush on Genjo Sanzo, and I just realized he and Marco have three things in common: They don't believe in God, and they're freakishly skinny yet they have abs, and their waistline is 22". XD
Marco wants to be a werewolf, and I remember joking before that if I couldn't have an Edward (vampire), I wanted a Jacob (werewolf).
And I don't remember saying this, but it's definitely a plus that Marco's the kind of guy I can have serious conversations with. I heard that it's hard to talk to guys about serious things, but with Marco I can always count on him to listen to me whenever I want to discuss something and his attention never wavers ^_^.
I also didn't think I'd easily find a guy who wanted to be with me and take care of me forever, but Marco's told me that on several occassions ^_^.

I love my boyfriend!

Idle Activity (is that an oxymoron?)

2008-04-21T10:50:57Z

    As suggested by Jopy, I am now blogging so that at least even if I'm not writing a story, I'm writing SOMETHING. I'll think of a good plot eventually. This reminds me of those young adult books where the book consists of someone's diary entries XD. Like Dear Mr. Henshaw or The Royal Diaries (yes, I am somewhat ashamed to admit I was into those).
    Anyway, wow, this is what my summer has come to: I'm going through each and every one of my blog entries that were imported from Livejournal and making them all friends only. Hahaha.
   I'm actually happy I now have time to do those long and tedious things I never got around to doing over the schoolyear, like sorting out my iTunes library.
   It's amusing looking over all my blog entries, seeing the parts where I fangirled over my crushes (real and fictional), and knowing my boyfriend owns them all ^_^. I know this is so sappy of me, but I've never been this in love with anyone before. Well, I've never been in love, period. Hahaha. Anyway, enough with this sap, I'm off to make all my entries friends-only XD.

Things I Must Do Before Summer Ends

2008-03-26T12:46:55Z

I still haven't fully absorbed that summer's here O_o' But darn, there's so much I want to do, so little time!!

Learn how to drive
Fence/find a sport
Finish at least one story
Finish Lord of the Rings
Immerse myself in literature
Immerse myself in anime/manga
Learn CSS and customize my Multiply layout
Master Guitar Hero XD

Lifted from April who lifted from Betti, because I don't feel like working and I don't feel like sle

2008-03-23T17:23:33Z

Here's the 411:
1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. No googling/using IMDB search functions.

1. "Is there any reason you shouldn't be in this man's Army? "
     "I'm a cross-dressing homosexual pacifist with a spot on my lung."
      "As long as you don't have flat feet."

2. "Your parents are probably wondering where you are."
   "Nah... I mean, I'm already pregnant, so what other kind of shenanigans could I get into?"

3. "I would not have thought it: there IS something better than a play!"
     "There is."
     "Even your play."
     "Hmm? "
     "And that was only my first try."

4. "Who came up with this ridiculous concept anyway? Resolve your entire life in one bold
   stroke? What if I fail? And I will. I'll fail. I'm telling you. I always fail. Then my whole life
will be a complete failure."
      "No offense, Harrison. But you died a failure because you never tried."

5. "It's not everyday you find a girl who'll flash someone to get you out of detention."

6. "This is absurd. It's just a dog."
     "Just a dog? *Just*? Porthos, don't listen! Porthos dreams of being a bear, and you want
to shatter those dreams by saying he's *just* a dog? What a horrible candle-snuffing word.
That's like saying, 'He can't climb that mountain, he's just a man', or 'That's not a
diamond, it's just a rock.' Just."

7. "Hello. My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die."

8. "You fool. No man can kill me. Die now."
   "I am no man!"

9. "I have loved you since the moment I clamped eyes on you. What could be more
   reasonable than to marry you?"
   "We'd kill each other."
   "Nonsense!"
     "Neither of us can keep our temper-..."
   "I can, unless provoked."
     "We're both stupidly stubborn, especially you. We'd only quarrel!"
      "I wouldn't!"
      "You can't even propose without quarreling."

10. "Granny... I just want you to know my real name! It's Chihiro!"
       "Oh, what a pretty name! Be sure to take good care of it, dear!"

11. "I wrote a suicide note."
      "You did?"
      "Yeah, right after I regained conciousness."
      "Well what does it say? Is it dark?"
       "Of course it's dark, it's a suicide note."
       "Can I read it?"
       "No."
       "Well could you at least summarize it for us?"

12. "So you are going away. Please, Howl. I know I can be of help to you, even though I'm not
   pretty and all I'm good at is cleaning."
       "Sophie! Sophie! You're beautiful!"
       "Well, the nice thing about being old is you've got nothing much to lose."

13. "I'm Liesl. I'm sixteen years old and I don't need a governess."

14. "You're the star? You're the star? Really? Oh, wow! I'm sorry, I had no idea you'd be it.
   Oh, I, may I just say for advanced that I'm sorry."
       "Sorry for what?"
        "For this. Now, if I'm not mistaken this means you have to come with me. You're going
   to be a birthday gift for Victoria, my true love."
       "But of course! Nothing says "romance" like a kidnapped injured woman! I'm not going
   anywhere with you!"

15. "When Adam's Flesh and Adam's bone sits in Cair Paravel in throne, the evil time will be
   over and done."
       "You know that doesn't really rhyme."

Nihon e ikitai!

2008-03-20T03:53:56Z

I don't really know why I'm so obsessed with the Land of the Rising Sun, but I seriously seriously with all my heart and soul want to go there. I keep dreaming about it every once in a while...I find myself in Kansai airport and I think, "Oh, I'm back O_o'." Then I wake up to find it was just a dream and then I go "Dammit -_-'." I want to see more gardens like Kenrokuen, where it was quiet and cool and peaceful and every single plant and stream and rock was a work of art and my soul was content, I want to go nuts again among all that anime merchandise and wear a kimono and eat Japanese sweets and see all the parts of Japan I haven't been to yet, especially TOKYO and the parts of Kyoto I didn't get to cover. And good grief, I want to bring all the people I love there with me and have the greatest time with them - my family, my block, my high school friends - and just share with them how awesome Japan is. Next sem, I am so going to keep my QPI up (don't worry Marco, somehow I'll do it without living in the lib and I am so dragging you to Japan with me if I have to stow you away in my suitcase) and keep on visiting the Japanese Department and make friends with the people there so they will all know me.

SLEEP IS BLISS.

2007-09-22T06:18:34Z

Okay, I know this is the first time in forever I've written in this journal, and it's funny that this is the first thing I write about. But anyway, for the first time since forever, I HAVE HAD SUFFICIENT SLEEP. As in, not just enough sleep to get up in the morning, but enough sleep to get up in the morning feeling RESTED, with no thoughts of, "Nooooo, I want more sleeeeep." Yesterday, I kept nodding off by 6, so I gave up and slept. Then I woke up at 9, called up a cousin whom I never really talked to before and told her about Landmark, had an awesome conversation with her, had some soup and went back to sleep. At 11:30 I woke up hungry, ate and went back to sleep at 1. And now I wake up at 8 AM. Sleep is <3 ^_^

Taken from _stillframe_'s journal

2007-04-15T11:17:56Z

REPLY to this POST and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Yay for Me

2007-04-03T13:03:35Z

At long last, I have decided to be in integrity and continue writing. For the past couple of years, everything I've written was either journal entries or English assignments. There was always a little voice at the back of my mind bugging me to write, and now I've decided to finally heed it. I guess this just proves that while I CAN live without writing, I can't truly relax without it ^_^'.
So, for starters, I've decided to continue my Saiyuki fic. I abandoned it because:

I had no idea where to go from there
I didn't have much confidence in my writing abilities at the time
I was getting tired of Yokan, who seemed awfully fickle, not to mention emo. (I sound like I'm not the one who created her XD)

I haven't reread the parts where Yokan gets fickle yet, but either way that can be fixed, and as for her being emo, I realized she DOES have very good reasons to be depressed, and no one can bounce back from what she's been through too quickly. In fact, one reviewer commented that she lacks anguish XD. So, I guess I could stick to her being depressed, but give it more depth so no one can call her emo.
One thing I find rather amusing is that when I read how I wrote Gojyo, sometimes the way he talks sounds a lot like me and that's one of the things I'd like to change as I rewrite my fic. When I reread my reviews, however, a lot of them praised my characterization of Gojyo. What the heck does that mean? XD

katana_tamashii @ 2007-04-01T00:51:00

2007-03-31T17:09:04Z

I don't know whether it started because of fencing or taekwondo, or somewhere in between, but somewhere along the way I've become one of those people who just HAS to keep moving -_-'. After 3 days/nights of sitting in front of the computer watching Marmalade Boy from 1 pm to 4 am and only stopping for meals and baths, I really started to feel gross ~~and I was gaining weight like never before~~. So I finally got off my butt and practiced for taekwondo a bit. After going up and down the stairs and stretching, I felt that energy-and-endorphin rush, and I only stopped with basic kicks because my body was starting to hurt and I was afraid of straining myself.
And tonight, during Tita Lorraine's grad party for all graduates of the Gonzales, Gutierrez, Feliciano and Junicio (sp?) families, I was rushing to finish off a slice of cake that disturbingly enough had my face on it (it was a big cake with the grad pics of all the graduates on it O_o' each of us got a slice as big as our grad pic) when Muriel came out of nowhere and smeared my chin with cake. Of course, there was NO way I was letting her get away with that! I literally kicked my heels off and ran after her like a madwoman, over grass and stones and tiles and cement, twice around the pool, garden, down the cement steps into the playground, up the stone steps into the garden/dining area again until finally she slowed down and I took my revenge by smearing cake on her face AND arm XD. That burst of energy that flowed into my legs was really marvelous, and even though I was sweaty and dirty and out of breath afterwards, I simply didn't care. Muriel's probably the only person who in one way or another manages to bring out the 5 year-old in me, even if it's only for a few minutes ^_^'. And she's a junior. Hahaha.
Maybe I should do track and field. It's only running that REALLY brings out my competitive side - as long as someone's running ahead of me, I can keep my legs churning till they give out because I absolutely HATE to lose, and I won't stop chasing them till they stop running. Same goes for when I'm the one being pursued. Geez, doesn't that make me sound like a dog -_-'. But really, there's just something about running that gives me a sense of freedom that taekwondo and fencing don't.

Talk About Strange

2007-03-26T18:43:06Z

I find it funny how people can so quickly jump to conclusions about things they don't know. Like the Landmark Forum, for example. I think I must have heard at least 3 stories from my friends about people thinking it's a cult, when it's totally not O_o'.

Cult (kult) n. 1 Worship or religious devotion; especially, a form of religion. 2 A system of religious observances. 3 Extravagant devotion to a person, cause, or thing; also, the object of such devotion.

Honestly, I don't see anything in the definition of 'cult' that defines the Landmark Forum. I mean, it's pretty much the same thing as all the other seminars people attend, except that the concept's different, it actually works, and everyone, or almost everyone who takes it gets so excited about it that they want to share it with all the people they know. I honestly don't see what's so cult-ish about believing that anything I want for myself is possible, that I'm in total control of my life and that whatever comes my way, I'll be able to deal with it and it won't throw me as much as it would have before. Knowing all of this is great, and it gives me a lot of confidence. I don't just muddle through life the way I did before, and I don't just aim to survive the way I did before. Before, I was absolutely exhausted, mainly by my schoolwork. I felt like I didn't have a life anymore, and I desperately yearned for one. I envied the people whom I felt were really 'living'. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't totally depressed and emo all the time. I did have fun with my friends, and I had my happy days. I was okay with the way my life was because I didn't think it could be any other way, and I was just hoping things would get easier in college, that I'd have more time to do the things I wanted to do and be with the people who mattered to me. But now I get that I don't have to hope for anything. I can have anything I want for myself, all I have to do is say I want it, be committed to what I say, and somehow I'll find a way to get it. If something really bad happens, or if I have problems, or even if I fail, that's okay. I know I can deal with it. I'm not just being idealistic, this is how things are for me. I used to wish I had a life. Now I know I HAVE one, and I've had one all along. I got something as fantastic as this, so isn't it natural for me to want the people around me, especially the ones I care about the most to get it too? Isn't it natural that I'd get really excited about it? And none of this conflicts with my religion, or with any other religion, for that matter. If ever, I believe that I'm living exactly the way God created me to live: whole, complete, happy, and reaching out to other people (I know there's a lack of parallelism here, bite me). Living like this makes me feel closer to God than before, and I'm not the only one. So tell me, what's so cult-like about this? And it's not like we do any weirdo rituals in the Landmark Forum. Basically, the seminar leader talks, and we listen. If we feel like it, we go up to the mike and talk, and he/she listens and talks some more, and sometimes he/she writes on the whiteboard. There's no candles or incense or whatever, no inspirational speeches. Just a lot of talking and listening for 3 days. It may sound boring, but trust me, it's totally not ^_^. It was the ride of my life (inconsistency with my tenses. I know).
Of course, I'm not making the people who think the Landmark Forum is a cult wrong. That's just the way they think, maybe because they're scared. I understand that. I just find it sad. And a little amusing. ^_^' Well, now that I've said all that, I feel much better now. Whoo-hoo!

Random thing: One of the participants in the forum is a Catholic priest who totally rocks XD

katana_tamashii @ 2007-02-28T11:41:00

2007-02-28T03:43:12Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIGHT! =D

Just thought I should post this, I'm not sure why ^_^'

2007-01-22T11:43:11Z

I didn't get into UP. I wasn't really expecting to, and I didn't desperately want to, so it doesn't sting as much as it does for other people. And right now, I don't have time to feel bad, so I'm reserving the "feeling-bad-ness" for next weekend ^_^' Right now I must do schoolwork and look forward to finally watching anime afterwards!!! Yehey!!! Oh yeah, I got my acceptance letter from Ateneo today =D I think the ego boost helped.

Would you rather pee a plum or poo a melon? XD XD XD XD (Talabaning)

2007-01-14T18:33:15Z

*points up at the subject* That was my status for most of the night and part of the morning. ^_^ It's 2:23 AM and I'm still awake because I just took a shower.
I'm beginning to think I'm becoming too dependent on LOLs and smileys. Almost every entry of mine has tons of smileys in it, and I think I should learn/re-learn to convey my emotions in words rather than smileys. *resists the temptation to insert another smiley*.
By the way, I'm at Chinee's, and we've been Talabaning all night, and right now everyone else is asleep and Marla is in the bathroom. Chinee's house totally rocks! Her parents are really nice and her place is so cozy, and you could swear you're in Mexico when you're downstairs. The interior is so pretty. Basically we've been laughing and listening to music and struggling to stay awake and get stuff done all night. We've managed 5 pages of Data and Results, cut out our surveys, edited the RRL and parenthetically cited one source. Marla insists on me sleeping so I shall post more later. Hahaha.

Long gone are the days when we could just rest and relax when we're sick

2007-01-10T09:42:55Z

Wheeeeeeee, for the first time in a long time I have real asthma. Not just an asthma attack, but asthma, the kind where your chest feels a little bit funny all the time, and just going up the stairs gets you out of breath, you cough once in a while and nebulize once in a while. It's kinda cool, since I haven't had this in a looong time. I don't know why I think having asthma is cool, but I've thought so since I was little, and what's wrong with looking on the bright side of things? I don't do that often enough. Anyway, in this case it's also not cool, cause I've got to go to school tomorrow and do my IW no matter what happens. And in my current state, the thought of going up the steps at the main gate, walking to the other side of the Poveda building and going up four flights of stairs carrying my bag, folder, lunch box and jug is daunting O_o". Yet the thought of getting a maid to help me carry my things is also quite embarrassing. Ah well...*sigh*

katana_tamashii @ 2007-01-06T11:05:00

2007-01-06T04:05:34Z

I am unexpectedly calm. It's probably because I haven't fully absorbed the fact that I AM AN ATENEAN!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!! =D
I got my first choice, too! AB ENGLISH LIT! I'm so relieved, I finally have a college! And as I walked back to my car, I looked around me and realized, This could be my campus. This could be MY SCHOOL!!! The feeling was absolutely awesome! I have upheld the honor of my family!! XD I couldn't stop staring at my name, and while looking for my friends' names I kept going back to my name to make sure I wasn't hallucinating. I'm so happy!!

I remember when last year, I walked past a bunch of seniors with huge grins on their faces saying, "We're Blue Eagles now!" I remember how much I envied them, since they were assured of being in the college of my dreams! And now I'm in, too! =D Seriously, though, I'm not jumping and yelling, I'm just outwardly calm ^_^". It'll probably REALLY sink in later.
And now, the song that is stuck in my head XD :

Fly high!
Blue Eagle fly and carry our cry
Across the sky!

Cast your shadow below,
Swoop down on the foe,
Then sweep up the fields away!

Fly high!
Over the trees make known through the breeze
Our victory!

Spread wide each wing
For you are the King
Blue Eagle, the King!

For the Eagle's the King of them all
And his blue feathers will never fall!
For the Blue and the White
And the Eagle in flight
Ateneo will fight
Today!

I FINALLY HAVE A COLLEGE!!! YEAH!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!

Another dream post

2007-01-02T03:56:15Z

Dream 1: This beats ALL the dreams I've had lately by a MILE. I dreamt I was Kira O_o" And my dad was the chief of police, in which case of course the police weren't corrupt. And of course, throughout the dream I had to keep it a secret from my family that I was Kira. We were in some ballroom place and I was really pissed cause I had to dance with my dad, and I didn't know how to ballroom dance so needless to say we looked a bit funny. But then at some point during the dream Light came in, and I don't remember him proposing to me, but then there was a part of the dream where I was suddenly aware that we were engaged and I think I was wearing a ring! It was when he came into the dream that I realized I was the second Kira and I was supposed to help him change the world and stuff. And I have no idea why, but at the end of the dream we were in a rowboat in a river and the sun was setting. How...cheesy. It reminds me of Thea's Casanova dream XD

Dream 2: I dreamt I was in the classroom telling Anna Lou and Karen about Dream 1 XD But then for some reason our classroom looked VERY different. It looked more like those classrooms you see on American shows on TV, and it was a whole lot bigger because to the left there were about twelve COMPUTERS. Karen and Anna Lou were sitting in front of one computer, and I had my Death Note on the desk while I was talking to them. Then at some point during IW, I don't know why but I suddenly decided that the door needed to be fixed, since it had been broken for a while. So I started trying to fix it, and then all of a sudden Sir Haj comes in and tells me I can't fix it, the manongs have been trying for months already. And I said, "So? I can fix it" and I continued trying. Then suddenly he took the door from me and started trying to fix it himself, and I thought, "Geez, epal Sir Haj." And then he showed me that the door was too big for the door frame, so it really couldn't be fixed O_o" End of dream.

Dream 3: I dreamt I was in some gym not unlike the college covered courts in Ateneo, except that it wasn't in Ateneo, it was in some community in the city. Now that I think about it, it might have been Taguig. Anyway, there was taekwondo and I was training, and having a blast doing it. Dadha was training there too, but I didn't care because I was having too much fun doing taekwondo. There were two brothers, a tall older one and a little boy, and the older one had a crush on me -_-". I was pissed at him because first of all, I already felt weird since I knew he liked me, and second, he was the only one there who really kicked my ass, and he grabbed my wrists to stop me which is NOT allowed in sparring. I think I was friends with his little brother though. Anyway, after taekwondo everyone went into the changing rooms except him and Dadha, they were both sitting on a bench and I just stood there and looked at the two of them and suddenly I didn't feel so great. I felt pressured to talk to either one of them, but I REALLY didn't want to, and then I thought about calling Dadha over and telling her off for the last two text messages she sent me, but then I decided to wait until Talaban for that, and I went to my bag to change. Now THIS is where it really gets weird. There were yayas and drivers all around, but for some reason I didn't care. I started changing my shirt in front of everyone, and then I realized it was inside out so I took it off and in the middle of me putting it back on, Sir Ato came out of the changing room and that's when I got ashamed and rushed to get my shirt back on. Then he called us all into this other room, and I thought we were going to cool down, but then he started teaching us Korean words with matching actions -_-" It was quite strange. Some random coach was trying to confuse me for fun too by saying the wrong words with the wrong actions. But still, remembering how much fun I had in the dream is making me want to go back to taekwondo. I think I'll do a couple of sit-ups and stretch once I've digested my lunch.

katana_tamashii @ 2006-12-31T23:48:00

2006-12-31T15:53:14Z

So this is the new year
And I don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions

So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then I could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

There'd be no distance that could hold us back [x2]

So this is the new year [x4]

- "The New Year" by Death Cab for Cutie

Oh, the angst. This song's been stuck in my head all day. Hahaha =P Happy New Year, everyone!

I am a happy happy child!

2006-12-26T07:35:59Z

Since the maids are still on vacation, my mom keeps having to remind me to make my bed - usually, I wake up in such a fuzzy state that I forget. But suddenly, this morning, I remembered it by myself. And once I was done with my bed, I glanced at my desk, saw the piles of gift wrap and gifts and handouts and old school papers, and receipts - and thought, So this is what my room will look like when the maids aren't around? What about how my apartment would look like if I lived in Japan? And with that, I promptly went into a cleaning frenzy. Thanks to that my school folder has lost ten pounds, my desk is finally neat and my mother is happy.
    And as a reward for myself, I went to Comic Odyssey and bought myself TWO DEATH NOTE VOLUMES AND FRUITS BASKET 15!!! Of course, I HAD to choose a volume where L and Light were chained together XD And then I saw the NEXT volume, volume 7, had L on it and of course I had to get that volume too!!! This should last me till Death Note 12 raw comes out - and it should come out SOON, since it airs in Japan today!
    Speaking of Japan, I'm submitting my pre-application for the Kanazawa immersion program! Darn, I really hope this thing pushes through because it's like a dream come true for me! =D
    Oh yeah, random thing: last night, my poised, ladylike sister who hasn't gotten around to reading Death Note put her thumb in her mouth L-style and I went O_o". She caught me staring and said, "I'm trying to fix my retainer." And I said, "Oh." XD I love it when Death Note reminders come out of nowhere.

Last night's strange/scary dreams

2006-12-24T05:14:10Z

Last night/this morning, I stayed up till 2am ~~trying to~~ feeding my ~~starving, malnourished~~ Death Note fandom ~~*glares at mininova where alas, Death Note episode 12 has not yet been uploaded*~~. I read a couple of LightxL fanfics and, thanks to deathgod.org, saw a somewhat creepy yet entertaining music video of Madonna dressed up like Mello O_O" singing a song that seemed to fit his personality. I SWEAR, MELLO HIMSELF WAS SINGING AND DANCING BEFORE ME WITH MADONNA'S VOICE. IT WAS SHOCKING. *considers downloading the song*
Anyway, Karen and I wondered what strange dreams I would get because of this, so here I am posting the results:

Dream 1: Karen, Kasey, Reena, some other friends I can't remember and I were playing a board game with demons as the playing pieces. I was completely freaked out because apparently if you played the game long enough the pieces would move by themselves and it would turn into a Ouija board. Thank goodness the dream stopped before we reached that point. I have no idea where the hell that dream came from. *winces at the unintentional pun*

Dream 2: For some reason I can't remember, I had to go to Ateneo. Apparently I drifted off while dressing up and getting in the car, and when I came back to reality it was 5 am, I was standing outside the MAC in my taekwondo uniform with my taekwondo bag, and there were taekwondo people milling around waiting for the coaches to come. I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach and in my head I thought, "wait, what am I doing here?" and some of my taekwondo mates ran up to me and said excitedly, "Angelica, you're training?" And I gave a pained smile and said, "Yeah, I guess" while trying to think if there was some way I could still back out. Then Pipay suddenly came in a taekwondo uniform wearing two belts, one red, one pink and I just went O_o". I think this dream is my subconscious venting my guilty feelings about not going to training and not feeling nearly as passionate about taekwondo as I used to.

Dream 3: Something about living in my Lola Ludy's house and kleenex. I don't remember much.

Dream 4: It was some adventure-ish dream. Lots of trains breaking in half and running over incomplete tracks into the abyss below. I distinctly remember falling over the edge of a cliff, but then it was only as high as a two or three-story building and there was wreckage below to cushion the impact of the compartment I was in, so I wasn't too scared, and being at the top of a tall tree which also came crashing down. I seriously wonder what this dream means.

Dream 5: All of my friends (White Feet, Karen, Kasey, Anna Lou, Reena, Aika Bel) and I were sitting at a long table at some Christmas party. I can't remember who was hosting it, probably Pipay. For some reason, Anna Lou and I were cosplaying L and Light respectively (which is weird, because in real life I'm supposed to cosplay Mikami). We were supposed to do some LxLight thing I can't remember, but as soon as I looked at Anna Lou I burst out laughing and choked out in between giggles, "I can't do this! I'm not Light! I'm not Light! Light would be able to keep a straight face!" Yes, that was very strange. At least Death Note finally came out somewhere ^_^"

Obviously i am a bored person who has nothing better to do at the moment than talk about her weird dreams. I'm happy I have time to be bored, though. *prays for God to console those who haven't the time*

Whaaaaaaaaaat?

2006-12-22T05:26:45Z

...Whoa. That was unexpected ^_^" Cool!
Take the quiz and comment saying who you got:

http://www.deathgod.org/main.php?x=inter/p1
(because "insert link" didn't seem to be working)

*took the quiz again a few moments later*
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?!! WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT?!

... O_o" Is this some side of me that I haven't discovered, or is this quiz just seriously off? Me, the slacker, ambitious? And I thought L was off the mark...
It's pretty amusing, though! ^_^ Fine, I am L AND Light! BOW TO ME! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! *has somehow become hyper out of nowhere*